New year, new me?

This year (2010) has to be one of the quickest years I have ever witnessed. And as it's the last day of 2010, I think it's the best time to reflect on what has happened over the past 12 months.

• I've lost someone very dear to me, but I have gained someone very special.
• I turned my grades around when it seemed impossible, and with that came more confidence in myself.
• I did something I never thought I would ever do, a wild holiday in Corfu with 2 girl mates from college. And that's another thing, I never thought it would be with "girl mates" after all my previous trouble with friendships.
• I had 2 very important dreams made true by one very special guy.
• I found the confidence to read publicly at a funeral service. And to not stutter for the first time.
• I realised that there is so much more to my future than a career. And that the taste I had of travelling independently this summer, is something I want to pursue more broadly whilst I'm young.
• I had my first job, which taught me a lot about people and a lot about managing my money and how good it felt to earn my own money and never have to ask my parents.

Mostly importantly, it was a year of firsts for me. Some I'm glad I experienced, and a few, not so much. But I can safely say I have learnt a lot valuable life lessons.

So onto new years resolutions. My 2010 new years resolution was to not eat a single crisp for the whole year. And I haven't! So I'm starting to think, perhaps that was a bit too easy. My original idea was to keep a daily diary of thoughts, a bit like bridget jones I guess. So in a few years time when I read it back, I can recall the months leading up to and after I turn 18 and become a legal adult. I think this is what I shall do :)
I also have alot of other things I want to complete this year, it's going to be very exciting!

Wishing anyone who reads this crap a very happy new year and hope that all that they wish for comes true. Because if the right person comes along, your dreams can come true.

Girls things say they don't like, but they really do . .

Us females, are rather complicated I have to admit. In the way that we say we don't want guys to do this and do that but really, we actually do . .

For example:

1) "Nooo I don't want you ever paying for me to go out for dinner!" - probably the most common. We say this to be polite and we say this because we don't want to sound like we're being bought by them paying to do things. Us paying for ourselves gives us that bit of independence that we need in the relationship. But, truth is, we actually don't mind if you offer to take turns in paying or atleast offer. And of course pay if it's a special occasion because lets face it, we'd be pretty pissed if you didn't . .

2) "Girls hate flowers really" - SO WRONG. Girls love it. We eat it up like our favourite chocolate. It makes us feel special and that being given flowers is like our life as turned into a rom-com for a moment. So on birthdays, or anniversaries or even if your saying sorry, a bunch only costs a few quid . .

Will explain some more tomorrow . . zzzzzzzz.

Give it a go, or never know

There are too many "What if?" questions haunting us.

For example:

"What if I had said yes when he asked me out?"

"What if that had happened when I was there?"

What if we actually just went for it, took the bull by the horns and lived a little. Because, life is too short and full of unexpected twists and turns. It's unpredictable, which gives it that excitement. The time you say yes to doing something you wouldn't ever dare to do, that's when you realise "Why have I been saying no all this time?" because the fear of the unknown can give you such a buzz. This of course can be interpretted into many situations.

From my own experience, the phrase what if has haunted me in the past, not too long ago if I'm honest. For me it was "What if things had worked out the first time?".
I was 14, I had this huge crush on a guy in my business class but I was wish someone else. I dumped my boyfriend at the time because I just wanted the other guy, who we shall call Dave (for privacy reasons). I loved everything about him, but it turned out that when he got me, he didn't quite know what to do after that, so he dumped me infront of his mates (how immature i know, I kneed him in the balls not too long before that, so I guess it's Karma). I hated him. I was a teenage girl, low self esteem, you know the story.

But now I believe that it wasn't the right time for things to work out. I mean come on I was only 14! But I don't think your ever too young to fall in love. And I think this because, the same guy who captured me nearly 4 years ago, is the guy I'm with now.

So somehow, everything works out in your favour. I'm not saying that everyones situations will end so happily as mine as I'm the exception, not the rule. But everything does happen for a reason. Live a little, and don't let those 2 little words haunt you . .